I think… therefore I am.
Maybe the expression should be… I think therefore I “think” I am.
I “think” too much. I understand I should use my brain to think about how to drive a car. And how to use an I-phone. And how to change the ink in my printer.
But the truth is, that’s not what I spend the majority of my time and energy “thinking” about. I spend way more time thinking… I wonder what my mother meant by the comment she made? I wonder if my husband is going to speak to me in that tone of voice again that feels like fingernails on the chalkboard inside my head? I wonder if he would hit me back if I slapped him right across the cheek the next time he did it? Is my daughter going to find what she is looking for on her up-coming world travels? Thinking of trips, should I go on a trip? When was my last vacation? My brother is away on vacation, why aren’t I? Who would I want to go with? Is there something wrong with me that I want to go on vacation by myself?
Maybe the expression should be… I think therefore I am NOT.
The only thing I can be when I’m thinking is… thinking! And thinking isn’t being present.
Maybe I should rely on the five senses to be present. I see/taste/smell/hear/touch… therefore I am.
Most importantly…
I stop thinking… therefore I am.